Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Who am I?

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA         This week I've had a series of thoughts and concepts present for a revisit. A friend mentioned Tolle's book 'A New Earth' and said I might want to watch the review at Oprah.com. While there I surfed around a bit and came upon Dr. Wayne Dyer on Oprah's Soul Series. Then one day on Twitter Paulo Coelho tweeted the quote below so I visited his blog. All week I've been pondering the concepts of ego, personality, pain body and now. And working  with present moment. It has been an interesting week. Thought I'd share with you some of my outer and inner workings.

 So I begin... When asked who are you? We often reply with a series of socially acceptable identifiers like, "I am 'name', I work for 'employer', I live in 'town', I am 'relationship status'." Are we that? A name? A job? A town? A relationship?

No of course not. These are identifiers.... name, job, location, relationship. They are current points in time which can change. We get married/divorced, move, change our name and jobs all the time these days.  But if we aren't these... what are we? 

We also say, 'I am a 'man or woman', 'I'm 'age','I'm 'sexual preference' . We look in the mirror and see ourselves. We think, "That's me." But we can alter our body too. Change hair color, lose or gain weight, have plastic surgery and not look the same at all. We can even change our sex. If we make any or all of these changes are we still the same? We look different. No one may recognize us. But are we still the same?

We describe ourselves as, "I'm 'outgoing or introverted or other'. I'm a 'habit (smoker, drinker, etc.)'. I'm 'emotional state (happy, sad, thankful, etc.)'. " And other descriptive phases which talk about our emotional state or ego/personality. Are we how we feel or even what we think?

Dr. Wayne Dyer gives this collection of ideas about ego...

I am what I do

I am what I have

I am what others think of me

I am separate from you

I am separate from what is missing in my life

I am separate from God

"We are not our ego. When we see ourselves and the world from these ideas we are 'Edging God Out' (EGO).  We are already connected to all... have all, we just need to align and surrender. Become empty."

"Oh Krishna, The stillness of divine union which you describe is beyond my comprehension. How can the mind, which is so restless, attain lasting peace? " ~Bhagavad Gita

If not egoic thought, who are we? What is at the core? How can we know who we are? Where do we begin?

"Not as I will, but as thou wilt." ~2 Corinthians 3:4,5

"We need to forget what we think we are, so that we can really become what we are." ~ Paulo Coelho 

So 'I will' is akin to ego. Forget or surrender 'I will' or 'what we think we are'. Give up beliefs about self which come from ego or personality. The concept is clear enough but how?

"Be still, and know that I am God." ~Psalms 46:10

"True self essence comes out of stillness. Your innermost sense of self, of who you are, is inseparable from stillness. This is the I Am that is deeper than name and form.

To meet everything and everyone through stillness instead of mental noise is the greatest gift you can offer to the universe. I call it stillness, but it is a jewel
with many facets: that stillness is also joy, and it is love.
"~Eckhart Tolle

'Be still'. In the stillness we begin to understand 'what we are'.  But we have a life to live, things to accomplish. How can we become still or empty and have a life?

"Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment." ~Buddha

"Realize deeply that the present moment is all you ever have. Make the Now the primary focus of your life." ~Eckhart Tolle

Life can only be experienced Now. Not in past or future. Aligning self with the present moment aligns self with Life (God). But then how do we know our purpose? What we are to do?

"At the center of your being you have the answer; you know who you are and you know what you want." ~Lao Tzu

Being is focusing self on something other then brain grinding or mindless doing. It is Life. Breathe. Follow the breath. Still self inward by following stillness into through and around a flower, tree, plant. Becoming that stillness, quiet, peace. It enlivens. Follow it into the body, feel the buzz, hum or vibration of Life within you. Feel the Peace. Stillness. Joy. Bliss. Then you are fully present... NOW.  The fullness of Life can truly only be experienced now... end.

The photo above of the glorious rose was taken by my beloved friend Light who made his transition. Now he works in Spirit.

Hope you enjoyed my pondering.

~Bonnee

For more on Eckhart Tolle see eckharttolle.com or oprah.com  to watch 'A New Earth' book review with he and Oprah.

For more on Paulo Coelho see paulocoelho.com.br or read his blog.

For more on Dr. Wayne Dyer see drwaynedyer.com

4 comments:

Ella Moss said...

Dear Bonnie,
Thank you for submitting this terrific post to the Carnival of Walking with God.
Personally, I am very grateful for your "pondering" as it is enlighting and uplifting.
I am also putting your blog on my blogroll:-)
Ella

Anonymous said...

Hi Bonnie,

Saw your post at Ella Moss's WEBZINE. Thanks for the great post!

I was asked the same question at an Art of Living course. I saw how the teacher tore apart the 'name', 'town', 'relationship' kind of answers. Having had time to think and come up with an impressive sounding response, I said: I'm a drop of consciousness so small that I'm nothing; yet part of something so big that I'm everything. Although the immediate aim was to floor the teacher, I think there may be something in that reply.

- cheers,
- Manoj

Bonnee Klein Gilligan said...

Hi ella,
Thanks for your comment and for putting Spiritual Pondering on your blogroll. I appreciate it. I'm glad you've enjoyed my ponderings.
Blessings

Bonnee Klein Gilligan said...

Hi manojt
You are that indeed... a small drop of consciousness existing within all... merging with all... and the whole consciousness itself. Thanks for your insight and comment.
Blessings